My Irish Charm

I'm trying to stay focused
On the paths
That lie ahead of me
So many things I want to do
And many times I'm scared
That I won't be able to
Just when I'm about to give up
And I think there is no hope left
I close my eyes
Take a breath
And I stop and think of you

My ups and downs
You've been there through and through
You've been there through it all
You see me and know me for who I am
And there's no hiding anything from you

I didn't want to lose
Everything that you were to me.
We've been friends for years,
Since before I can remember.
I know every little thing about you
From your bright ecstatic blue eyes,
To your dreams, and your guilty pleasures.
And you know mine.
When it comes to you,
there is no one else that can compare.

I found out a little too late
I'm with someone else
And I don't know what to do.
He loves me.
I don't want hurt him,
But I'm in love with you.

I don't know how it started really
An accidental kiss,
Honest it was
We both fell
And we landed that way

Things happen for a reason
It wasn't a coincidence
Things were not working out
I was upset
And there was you

You are all I've ever wanted
You loved me just for me
Not just for what I could be
I don't have to impress you
I already do
But what do I do?

He didn't have a clue
Of what we've been going through
He didn't have a clue
Of all of the things we've been through
He didn't have a clue
I want to be with you instead of him

As the weeks went by
Guilt started to eat at me inside
He loves me, I don't love him
You love me, I love you
Now I know what I must do

I told him the yesterday
He got upset, angry
He yelled and screamed
It was too much
I'm sorry to say
I ran away

I say this to you
As an apology of sorts.
I love you, my Irish charm
I always have
I always will

I'm sorry
I'm not bravest
I'm not the wisest
Or the strongest
But I love you
And that's all I can do

You love me with all of my faults
You love me for just being me
I don't have to prove myself
For the first time with you
I feel I can just be me

I've had my heart locked
For a very long time
You've been showing me
That love is much more than
All of the rejections
And all of the pain I've felt

You've unlocked
This locked heart of mine.
You threw away the lock
And you kept the key

Before I asked
You told me
It would be to remind us
Of everything we had to go through
Of how long it took to get us
To where we were
And of all of the things that are to come

A year later, to this day,
I wear it now around my neck
I've never taken it off
A silver chain,
A locket heart pendant,
And your key
A small symbol
Of what you mean to me